Dead Inside

Last week, I wrote a blog post about this blog and mentioned that I don't do personal posts. But I for whatever reason, I'm waiving that tonight to talk about what happened early this morning: Donald Trump winning the election. I was at the polls at 6am, excited to vote for a woman I had admired for my whole life, since I was a poor kid on Hillary's free health care for children, which she got a lot of shit for. It wasn't what a first lady did, people said. They literally argued against giving children health care.

I'd supported Bernie during the primaries, but he lost, and Hillary was my close second. I voted and went to work, wearing white in solidarity with the suffragists, and my thoughts were of the women who were voting who had lived during a time when women were not allowed to vote. I wouldn't be surprised if those women dropped dead the second they learned pussy-grabbing Trump had won.

the image that will haunt me forever, when I thought for sure Hillary was going to win. Proud to have voted.

New York City is progressive. 90% of people voted for Hillary. Donald was booed the whole time he was voting for himself. EVERYBODY HATES him. Donald Trump himself didn't think he was going to win. I work nearby his home at the Trump Tower, so I stopped by for shits and giggles:

Yes, Donald, America looks like a third-world country when you live in a literal gold tower. 

The mood was festive at the office, and we all thought for sure he was going to lose. This is in an area where 9 out of 10 people despise Trump. I didn't cancel my evening gaming plans. I walked through Rockefeller Center, which was festive with lights and flags and big TV screens and the big ice skating rink.

But we didn't play any roleplaying games at the cafe. Trump was fucking winning. One of them was a scientist and said the absolute worse thing for science if if Trump was elected. For most of the night, we just watched in horror. For my readers overseas who aren't aware, this is the man who would jail his political opponents, who said he'd end all of Obama's executive orders, providing health care and income-based loan repayments. I'm most afraid for the end of his PAYE (pay as you earn) plan. Those of you overseas who have free education would be shocked to learn that without the plan, I'd be paying double my rent on student loan payments. And I can barely afford my rent as is. The housing crisis in NYC wasn't helped, btw, by men like Trump himself. Trump has lied about everything, so I hope he will not actually end all of those executive orders. Contrast this with Hillary's plan to give free education, which the rest of the world already fucking has.

He doesn't believe in equal pay for equal work, wants to get rid of the minimum wage. He's a sexual assaulter. And something like half of the women in the US voted for him.

The candidate that was endorsed by the KKK also got more black votes than the previous Republican presidential nominee, Mitt Romney.

In the past year or so, corporate greed and political corruption met at the apex at Flint, Michigan, where the residents were drinking lead-tainted water from a polluted river. The people were literally being poisoned. With lead. The water was brown, disgusting, but the politicians said it was fine to drink. Finally the Environmental Protection Agency (EPA) came to save the day and the whole thing was exposed. Would it shock you to know that 42% of those in the county of Flint voted for the man who promises to get rid of the EPA? 

Today in the office, we didn't get any work done. People worried and watched the news. People wept. There was a dumb meme that was being shared about how 11/9 was the new 9/11. It's a dumb meme, but there are a lot of parallelisms between that day and today. We all felt lost and scared and as if the world is a completely different place than it was yesterday. Well, see you next week unless I'm in political prison.